Monday, 29 December 2008

101/365



Sorry for all the point and shoots lately, I've been busy, what with it being Christmas 'n' all. Plus been seeing people a lot the last 3 days and the next few days I have a lot of coursework so I'm afraid it will still be point and shoot :(. Sorrydahlings!

Taken: Monday 29th December 2008. Day 101.

100/365



Been really busy today, hence why there is no creative, celebratory picture filling this gap! Arrgh.

Have me as the Virgin Mary.

Enjoy!

Taken: Sunday 28th December 2008. DAY 100!

99/365



Went to visit my sister in Dorset today. My niece didn't want her picture taken, hence the facial coverage!

Taken: Saturday 27th December 2008. Day 99.

Friday, 26 December 2008

98/365



Where is everyone today?

You better appreciate this picture, I froze my arse off taking this. It was below zeeeero.

Should be getting my new camera on Monday or Tuesday.

Taken: Friday 26th December 2008. Day 98.

Thursday, 25 December 2008

Merry Christmas! - 97/365



What I love? That present isn't even for me :P.

I woke up for no reason at 5am and then got a text from Cat at 5.30 (WHY were you up at 5.30 Cat?). Managed to get back to sleep then got up at 9, got dressed, ate breakfast and sat on the sofa waiting for my dad to finish eating so we could eat breakfast. He took 2 hours eating (wtf?) and then we opened presents =]. I got some cool stuff. Ladyhawke CD, Russell Howard Live DVD, silver leggings, sid viscious tee, purple hoodie, mask, jewellery and some other bits and pieces. Pretty cool :)

So merry Christmas to ya'll! Did you get what you wanted?

Taken: Thursday 25th December 2008. Day 97.

P.S....GEEK GLASSES!

Wednesday, 24 December 2008

Style Icons For 2009

Katherine Moennig




Florence Welch




P!nk




Sue Denim




Mette Lindberg




Maya Von Doll




The Veronicas




Are you can see each of them have a very distinctive personal style - both in dressing and in the way they speak, move and act. And that is why they are on this list. By the way, to really understand what they are on my list you have to watch the video!

Do you have any style icons for 2009? If so, who?

Christmas Eve - 96/365



Good morning.

HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYTODAYOMGYAY.

No not because it's Christmas eve.

Because I've been using BRAIN POWER.

Bored of wearing a jeans and t-shirt combo every day. Grr.

Taken: Wednesday 24th December 2008. Day 96.

Tuesday, 23 December 2008

Cover Your Mouth - 95/365



There are now lots of little pink hearts all over my bedroom floor. Cute.

So learning what I think about myself hurts yanno.



Taken: Tuesday 23rd December 2008. Day 95.

Stealing From Em

(x) stayed single for the whole year
( ) got your first kiss
( ) kissed someone new
( ) made-out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
( ) fell in love
( ) had your heart broken
( ) broke someone else's heart
( ) had a stalker
( ) mooned someone
( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone
( ) had a good relationship with someone
(x) suffered
(x) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
( ) dated someone you'll never forget
(x) done something you've regretted
( ) lost your true love
( ) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under mistletoe
( ) lost a promotion
( ) gotten a pay raise
( ) changed jobs
(x) waited until one day before to begin a project
( ) lost your job
( ) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
( ) took an honors/advanced class
(x) broke the dress code
(x) did something you were proud of
( ) discovered a new talent
(x) proved yourself an idiot
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget
( ) painted a picture
( ) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
(x) seen a live concert
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
( ) posted a blog on MySpace
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
( ) went swimming
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
( ) went camping
( ) threw a surprise party
( ) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
( ) flirted shamelessly
(x) broke in a line of waiting people
( ) volunteered to help out others
( ) visited a new state
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't
( ) partied to celebrate the new year
(x) cooked a disastrous meal
( ) drove the car drunk
(x) lost something/someone important to you
(x) lied about how old you were
(x) got a gift you adore
( ) got 'shit faced' on alcohol
( ) took a nude picture of yourself
( ) almost got arrested
( ) prank called someone
( ) saw a college football game in person


.:: In 24 hours have you ::.
Showered?: No.
Had a serious talk?: Yes.
Hugged someone?: Yes.

JANUARY 2008
1. Who did you kiss on new years? No one
2. Did you have a new year's resolution this year? Probably but I can't remember it.
3. Does it snow where you live? No.
4. Do you like hot chocolate? Yes. But not banana hot chocolate, that isn't nice.
5. Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop? No.
6. Do you ski or snowboard? LOL no. I'd fail badly.

FEBRUARY 2008
1. Who was your Valentine? No one..
2. When you were little did you buy Valentine's for the whole class? No.
3. Do you care if the groundhog sees its shadow or not? No...
4. What did you get for valentines? Nothing.

MARCH 2008
1. Are you Irish? No.
2. Do you wear green every year on St. Patrick's Day? No.
3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2008? Nothing. My GOD my life is dull xD
4. Are you happy when winter is pretty much over? Yes.

APRIL 2008
1. Do you like the rain? Sometimes. I like the concept of rain..
2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year? No.
3. Did you get lots of candy for Easter? No.
4. Do you celebrate 4/20? ..? What?
5. Do you "love" the month of April? I don't mind it.

MAY 2008
1. What is your favorite flower? I like daisy's. Haha. And orchids.
2. Finish the phrase "April showers": I ATTACK YOU.
3. Do you celebrate May 24th? What is on May 24th?
4. Is May anything special to you? I think someones birthday is in May.

JUNE 2008
1. What did you do for Fathers Day? Gave my dad a gift.
2. Did you do anything fun during this month? I think so. I think June was quite a good month.
3. Have a favorite baseball team? No I'm ENGLISH.

JULY 2008
1. What did you do on the 1st of July? Stood in a cold drama studio all day.
2. Did you go to the fireworks? No. But my sister-in-laws birthday is on the same day as Independence Day.
3. Do you tan in the day? I think the question is do YOU tan in the day? (P.S: what sort of weirdo tans at night. They're called SUN tans for a reason)

AUGUST 2008
1. Did you do anything fun to end the summer? No.
2. What was your favorite memory of summer? Errr...dunno. My summer was quite crap. I went to Yorkshire and was ill. Yay.
3. Did you have a sunburn? No I don't burn.
4. Did you go to the pool a lot? Not once.

SEPTEMBER 2008
1. Were you attending school? I was.
2. Do you like fall better than summer? I like September.
3. Anything special about September to you? Yes my birthday. Yay.

OCTOBER 2008
1. What was your last Halloween costume? Witch. When I was like 9. I was going to dress up as an evil fairy this year but I had to go to a funeral.
2. What is your favorite candy? Depends on my mood.
3. What is your favorite thing about this month? I'm not sure.

NOVEMBER 2008
1. Whose house do you go to for Thanksgiving? No ones.
2. What is your favorite thing about November? This year? THEMIGHTYBOOSHLIVE.

DECEMBER 2008
1. Do you celebrate Christmas? Yeh.
2. What are you thankful for? Having 10 toes.
3. Have you ever been kissed under the mistletoe? No. Shut up.
4. Get anything special last year? Laptop to replace the one that blew up O_O
5. What do you want this year? I know what I'm getting this year. Clothes, a masquerade mask, purple hair spray, a weird hat and some other little things.
6. Do you go to a formal this year, with who? A what?

Where did you begin 2008? On the sofa. Watching the telly.

What was your status on Valentine's Day? Single. Like always.

Were you in school (anytime this year)? Yes..

Did you have to go to the hospital? Possibly. I get my years muddled up.

Did you know anybody who passed away? I did.

Did you move anywhere? I like..walked around and stuff.

What concerts/shows did you go to? Tonight Is Goodbye, Scouting For Girls, The Mighty Boosh :D

DESCRIBE YOUR BIRTHDAY
Dull. I were at school I were.

What has been your favorite moment(s)?
I dunno. I like being upside down.

What was your best month?
June/July.

Overall, how would you rate this year?
Fluctuating. Had some really low moments and some pretty high moments. So 3, 6 and 9 I shall say.

Do you have a New Year's resolution?
I will.

Twilight - 94/365



Wore my glittery legwarmers to see Twilight this morning. It was really good, I'm pleased about that. I was worried I'd hate it 'cos I do like the books and usually I don't like film adaptations of books but it was good. Plus the girl who played Alice was super-cute xD. I must say, I don't get why people think Edward is hot?

Taken: Monday 22nd December 2008. Day 94.

Monday, 22 December 2008

I'm Cool. And Bored.

honestly, how mαny people hαve you ever hαd strong feelings for?
*shrug*

honestly, whαt color αre your underweαr?
I dunno. Lots of colours I think.

honestly, whαt's on your mind?
The lyrics to New Romantic by Laura Marling, the video for Dog Days by Florence and the Machine, the movie for Twilight.

honestly, αre you jeαlous of someone right now?
A little bit but not really.

honestly, whαt mαkes you hαppy most of the time?
You really wanna know? 'Reach' by S Club 7. LOL I know.

honestly, do you wαnt to see someone this very minute?
Uhh nah I'm good.

honestly, do you hαve deep secrets?
Not really.

honestly, αre you meαn?
I'm not mean.

honestly, where did you copy αnd pαste this from?
Em's blog. What is with the 'honestly' thing?

honestly, where would you rαther be right now?
I'm pretty cool where I am. I'd quite like a conversation with Florence Welch though, she's rocking.

honestly, who wαs the lαst person thαt sent you αn im, whαt did it sαy?
I don't know...it was last night some time.

honestly, hαve you gone out of your wαy to mαke α new friend?
Dunno.

honestly, αre you desperαte?
For what?

honestly, who wαs lαst to sαy good night to you?
My dad? I dunno..

honestly, did you ever lie to someone you loved?
Probably.

honestly, when wαs the lαst time you reαlly cried your heαrt out?
Don't want to talk about it. Weirdly it was fun.

honestly, do you think its right to cheαt if your boy/girlfriend cheαted on you?.
Maybe...depends on the situation/person..

honestly, whαt mαkes you mαd?
People complaining about things that aren't interesting and making a drama out of nothing.

honestly, does being with your friends make you happy?
Depends which friends I'm with. In general? Yeh.

honestly, do you believe in yourself?
Depends.

honestly, who cαn you go to for αnything?
I don't think I have anyone I can go to for anything. I kinda have...specialised people. I get on better with myself and google when I need help. Hah!

honestly, hαve you hugged α girl this week?
I have. This morning.

honestly, hαve you hαd α kiss on the cheek this week?
Nay.

p α r t t w o

hαve you ever wαlked in on αnyone mαking out?
Dunno.

ever been in α cαr wreck?
No.

αre looks importαnt?
Sort of.

do you hαve αny friends thαt you've known for ten yeαrs or more?
Errrrm yeh.

hαve you ever mαde α mistαke?
What sort of question is THAT?

whαt song do you wαnt plαyed αt your funerαl?
Witchdoctor haha. Dunno. If I died tomorrow I'd like something by Florence and the Machine to be played cos she is really soulful and has a beautiful voice.

whαt would your lαst meαl be before getting executed?
I don't like meals much. Can I have dark chocolate and raspberries instead?

if you hαd to pick one person on earth to die, who?
Ahem.

hαir color you like on someone you're dαting?
:D Blaaaaack (you old goth, you)

whαt do you do αs soon αs you wαlk in the house?
Take my shoes & coat off

who is the person you cαn count on the most?
Count on? Not sure. Again, depends.

if you could dαte αny celebrity pαst or present, who would it be?
Seriously? You have to ask this? Don't kill me because the survey asked ok? NoelFielding=D

whαt did you dreαm last night?
I was in the canteen at school with my friends but I dunno what happened. Later in the dream I was dancing in a field with Pip Brown (Ladyhawke).

hαve you ever been in love?
WITH A BATTERY. Oh yes..

hαve you ever been αrrested?
No.

p α r t t h r e e

do you believe in love αt first sight?
Do you? :o

whαt αbout true love?
Both words are in the dictionary so I guess it exists. Hah.

would you kiss on the first dαte?
Mhm.

do you look for hook ups?
For coats :D Lol I'm so lame.

p α r t f o u r

whαt's bothering you right now?
An itch behind my ear and the fact I keep sneezing.

would you shαre α drink with α strαnger?
No, I rarely share a drink with my friends..I am a hypochondriac.

wαllpaper on your computer's desktop
A painting by Elsiecake.

next time you will hug someone?
Who knows. Today I expect.

where wαs your profile pic taken?
I don't know what my profile picture is...after having a look I can tell you in a field.

whαt is the lαst thing you αte todαy?
A celebration I think. Or pringles.

who wαs the lαst person to send you α text messαge?
Cat I think.

hαve you ever kissed αnyone nαmed jαke?
No xD

whαt do you smell like?
Flowers.

hαve you hit someone todαy?
Nope.

do you believe in soul mαtes?
No cos there isn't an even number of people in the world and some people are killed when they're like really young meaning that isn't very fair on their 'soul mate'. HAH I CAN BE PHILOSOPHICAL.

whαt is one thing you'd reαlly like to do right now?
Talk with Florence Welch, I said that. Haha.

whαt did you do last weekend?
Nothing I don't think.

who do you miss?
No one.

whαt αre you going to do αfter this?
Read Overheard In New York.

Sunday, 21 December 2008

A Christmas Message...(ohgod) - 93/365



I have filmed a video which I may or may upload at a later date...

Taken: Sunday 21st December 2008. Day 93.

Saturday, 20 December 2008

Welcome Back, Creativity - 92/365



Oh creativity, how I have missed you. Don't leave me again.

So today I got up at 11, watched Nightmare Before Christmas on BBC 2, ate chocolate buttons, cake mix and raw broccoli and then came online. Pretty happy and good.

However, I think I try too hard. I try my very hardest not to cancel plans even if I really should yet people seem to be able to cancel plans with me easily enough which is very, very frustrating. I know for sure that others mean much more to me than I mean to them. That is annoying.

Pssssh.

You like my hair? It's long zomg!

Update: Got really pissed off with my camera earlier. Happier now. Apparently Christmas tunes cheer me up. Who knew?

Taken: Saturday 20th December 2008. Day 92.

91/365



You can see the traces of whiskers left on my face.
Last day of school, 'twas a half and a pretty good day.

If you are my friend then I <3 you. A lot =]

Taken: Friday 19th December 2008. Day 91.

90/365



Christmas next week.

Taken: Thursday 18th December 2008. Day 90.

89/365



I keep messing things up.

Taken: Wednesday 17th December 2008. Day 89.

88/365



Sorry.

Taken: Tuesday 16th December 2008. Day 88.

Thursday, 18 December 2008

2008 Overview

What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
Stopped being so secretive, dyed my hair yellow, dyed my hair black, saw the Mighty Boosh live (!!!!!!!!), started GCSEs, got a phone on contract, got a black Christmas tree, painted my bedroom red (meh).

Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Don't think I made any - I was a right scrooge last year! And yes, but I kind of have constant 'resolutions' going on so it will probably just be a resolution to stick to the resolutions!

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Err...yes!

Did anyone close to you die?
Not close to me, but in my family.

What countries did you visit?
Stayed in the UK..aww..

What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
Ooo..I'm not sure! I don't think I lacked anything really. I mean, there are always things that you want or want to improve on but...I think to just keep improving myself is a pretty good thing.

What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
15th November. MIGHTYBOOSH!

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting 7,7,6 in my SATs. Getting over my low self esteem.

What was your biggest failure?
I don't want to use the word failure since really a failure is just another part of personal growth but disguised in dog shit..

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Err don't think so. Just flu and all that. I might have broken a toe or two, don't remember.

What was the best thing you bought?
iPod :)

Whose behavior merited celebration?
Everyones.

Whose behavior made you appalled?
Pssssh not gonna say.

Where did most of your money go?
Clothes, music.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Booooosh :P!

What song will always remind you of 2008?
I don't think there is one specific one. Just music that was big in 2008. The Ting Tings, Katy Perry and so on.

Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) Happier or sadder? Happier
b) Thinner or fatter? Neither really
c) Richer or poorer? Wealthier

What do you wish you'd done more of?
Happy things that made me smile very widely

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Unhappy things that made me cry haha

How will you be spending Christmas?
In my house

Did you fall in love in 2008?
I learnt to love myself - that count?

How many one-night stands?
0

What was your favorite TV program?
You really need to ask?

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Errr don't think so.

What was the best book you read?
I Was A Teenage Fairy by Francesca Lia Block

What was your greatest musical discovery?
THE ASTEROIDS GALAXY TOUR!

What did you want and get?
BooshticketsBooshtickets. God I sound obsessed but that was pretty much my year..

What did you want and not get?
A Macbook.

What was your favorite film of this year?
Of this year? Didn't see many films this year. Not a filmy person personally.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
On the actual day that was my birthday I was at school and I was 15.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Everchanging.

What kept you sane?
Sane? What is this?

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Don't shoot me! The survey asked! NOELFIELDING.

Who did you miss?
Errrm no one much.

Who was the best new person you met?
Don't think I really met anyone new, I just started hanging out with a different crowd. But best new person I DISCOVERED = Gala Darling.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008
Oh shit too many...errrr...be positive and optimistic, don't worry if others don't accept you, do what YOU want to do if it makes you happy. I could go on.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
I don't have a clue to be honest :P

Tuesday, 16 December 2008

87/365



Looking back on latest photos - they're so dull! I'm sorry guys I'll try do something better from Friday (half day!) onwards - promise..

Taken: Monday 15th December (1MONTHSINCEBOOSH;;) 2008. Day 87.

Who Cares If I Can Work Machines? - 86/365



Trying on a hat in H&M, fetching, huh?
Went out to see Cat and finish off my Christmas shopping today. Brighton has nice decorations.


In my dressing gown before going out. The window is pretty cool, non?

I had to wait about 45 minutes for the bus because I left early and the bus came late. Gaaah annoyance!


After I took the hat off in H&M...looks like I'm holding a prosthetic limb.







In the evening, I was dancing and it made my hair look pretty awesome :P

Video coming soon...

Taken: Sunday 14th December 2008. Day 86.

85/365



Courseworkcourseworkcoursework.

Taken: Saturday 13th December 2008. Day 85.

Friday, 12 December 2008

Late Night Shopping - 84/365



Sitting on the steps outside the cinema waiting for Yana and Hannah. Texting Hannah in fact. Yay!

Gooood night. I like fun evenings they make me glad and happy and stuff. Even if it is just walking up and down the high street of this little town. Or skipping, in my case. However my big toe on my left foot really hurts because there is a hole in the socks I was wearing which was sort of cutting of circulation...

However, walking back from school today someone asked me if I was a transsexual. WTF. Hadn't heard that rumour before now.



Pretty blue lights on the side of a weird ride thing which I didn't go on. I rang Cat and then Em. Neither of them replied (oh but both replied when I was actually with people! Honestly!).

Uhhm I didn't buy anything. I went on this thing with mirror and a black mat which moved. I walked spastically across it. Ooh yes.

We didn't really do anything as such. Just sort of messed around a bit but it was really fun. I do like leaving my house xD.

I also REALLY liked my outfit. Really really really. It was yummmmm. Even comments on it didn't get me down because I LIKED IT AND HAHAHAHAHA. First outfit I've put together and liked since the Boosh.



-Hat (not pictured in that picture) from Accessorize
-Scarf from Jane Norman
-Mighty Boosh t-shirt
-Belt from Peacocks
-Jeans from BooHoo
-Leg warmers from Tizz's
-Boots from Schuhe
-Ring (not pictured) from Octopus

This weekend will be ok. Tomorrow is just gonna be catching up on h/w and c/w but seeing Cat on Sunday so that will be fun. Provided I don't bump into Mr Sims. That would be death.



Cos we're all rockstars at heart :P


Rockstars. Or genius?

then someone said good morning
i took it as a warning


I tried candy floss for the first time. I dunno whether I liked it or not. you go to swallow it and then...it's gone. which is weird. but it's kinda addictive.

Taken: Friday 12th December 2008. Day 84.

Thursday, 11 December 2008

Resuuuuurface - 83/365



How fucking weird is my nose?

Ok so I promised to be nice and give ya'll an update on my life but to be honest I haven't been doing anything interesting. Just internet browsing, coursework and stuff like that, nothing big. Sorry!

I found out I relax if I hold something (like a can or a bottle) in my hand.

Taken: Thursday 11th December 2008. Day 83. A fun, good day.

Hello Mr Christmas Tree - 82/365



I promise on tomorrows picture I will give you a life update - it's all just a bit hectic right now.

Taken: Wednesday 10th December 2008. Day 82.

Give In My Friend, Give In My Friend - 81/365



GIVE ME HOT HOT LOVE AROUND THE BEND.

Taken: Tuesday 9th December 2008. Day 81.

80/365



My face appears ridiculously childlike in this picture.

Taken: Monday 8th December 2008. Day 80.

Sunday, 7 December 2008

What Will Your Daddy Do When He Sees Ya Mama Kissin' Santa Clause? - 79/365



All I want for Christmas is you :o *point*. Wrapped up in feathers. Hahahaha.

We've been putting up Christmas decorations all day which is pretty cool. I think it's the earliest I've ever put them up.

Now I'm watching the movie 'Miracle on 34th Street'. NEW YORK!

I also found out I can't stand the smell of blood. At all. It is SO SO horrible. Uugugggh.

Taken: Sunday 7th December 2008. Day 79.

Fear The Power Of The Raspberry, Skank - 78/365



Because I am your creator.

"Have you seen my box? It's opaque black and entirely transparent. In it? My virginity and a bottle of milk."
"Arrgh the air hurts my hands!"
"Are golfers the english equivalent of gophers?"

Taken: Saturday 6th Decmeber 2008. Day 78.

This Is My Face - 77/365



And I'm singing uh oh on a Friday night and I hope everything is gonna be alright.

Taken: Friday 5th December 2008. Day 77.

10 Things

So I first saw this on Nubby Twiglet's site and then later here on Vixel's blog. Therefore I thought I'd join in because I do quite like bandwagons. Plus I'm trying to put off getting dressed - most of my clothes are in the wash so it's a miserable experience.

1. Starting off with a bit of a seasonal one...I really like Christmas. I love the smells of cinnamon and pine, I love those awful Christmas songs (yes, that includes Mariah Carey!), I love the possibility of snow, visiting relatives, decorating the house and all the pretty lights everywhere. Then there is the end of term, the last day is always good. We have the Christmas concert, a day that is half the length of normal and everyone is happy and excited. I love Cascada's version of Last Christmas.

2. I am left handed and find it difficult to do stuff with my right hand.

3. I can't kick a football. At all. Or play tennis.

4. I already have a plan what my apartment will look like when I move out.

5. I plan on changing my name when I'm 18 but I'm still not totally sure what to.

6. I really love stand up comedy and after watching it I always feel completely myself. My favourite comedians are Noel Fielding, Tim Minchin, Russell Brand, Russell Howard, Bill Bailey and Michael McIntyre.

7. I have no idea how tall I am or what I weigh.

8. Some of my best conversations have been whilst waiting for buses.

9. I am fascinated by crows and magpies but I'm slightly scared of birds. I am terrified of spiders for no apparent reason.

10. I share my birthday - September 4th - with one of my best friends.

Friday, 5 December 2008

Why The World Is Good

Everyone is on their own journey. They all start out at the same place, but how far they go is up to them.
At the beginning there are several paths and we don't get to choose which one to take. If we are lucky we will be led down the one with fewest thorns and nettles possible, but at the beginning the choice isn't ours.

We grow and we learn and then our guidance lets go of our hand, but is still there beside us, telling us what to do.
We reach a cross roads where we can choose to go left, right or straight on - or unseen option 4, go off the track. 'Off the beaten path', as they say.
We may listen to our guidance. We may listen to the others. OR we may listen to ourselves - that's totally out of this world, baby!
Now that your guidance is merely your critical audience you no longer NEED to listen to them to survive. You may deliberately do the opposite your guidance says just to rebel against them and prove to yourself that you are free.
However, you have probably made a few friends with the people one your path and may regret leaving them. You may end up taking the same path as them. This is possibly out of fear that if you take a different path alone there may be more nettles and denser thickets which you will have to endure alone.
The scariest option of them all is making up your own mind and forging a new path. What if you get lost? What if you end up alone? It's scary and that's why most people stick to the tried and tested, the paths.

But would life not be more thrilling off of the path? More satisfying, surely.

Whoever you listen to and whichever route you choose you will eventually encounter some thorns.
The thorns will hurt you but you will recover quickly. First, though, you face a choice.
You can turn back and try a different path because you can see that some people seem to have reached their destination without thorns but whichever way you go...you WILL encounter thorns.
You can give up, resign, throw your hands up in despair and stay miserably where you are.
Or you can push though the thorns until you get to the thorns until you get to the field of daisies on the other side and then keep going, enjoying the experience as you go and knowing that the thorns make you stronger.

Listen to yourself, come off the path, push through the thorns. You'll get there in the end.

xoxo Kati.

P.S: Isn't the joy and pure happiness you feel in the daisy field much stronger than that of the pain from the thorns? Yes, I thought so.

P.P.S: It doesn't have to be a field of daisies, if you know that I mean!

Thursday, 4 December 2008

Vampire Bite - 76/365



A vampire bit my foot and it hurt.

Oh the alternative story, a chair slammed into my foot in physics on Tuesday and it hurt.

I need to get my happiness levels back up rapidly. I'm worried I'm spiralling downwards again...I blame winter.

It's been over a year, now, since the whole...I don't know how to describe it. Unfortunate situation. I'm really hating it 'cause whenever I see them it brings back pain and bad memories and shit and I don't want that.

It would be easier to be a vampire, I've decided. Vampirise me.

Taken: Thursday 4th December 2008. Day 76.

75/365



My oh my.

Feeling...I don't know how I'm feeling.

Taken: Wednesday 3rd December 2008. Day 75.

Tuesday, 2 December 2008

I Can't Take My Eyes Off Of You - 74/365



Strange day. All emotion filled. Damn it.

I did almost punch someone tho. That were fun.

Taken: Tuesday 2nd December 2008. Day 74.

I Never Really Thought That You Liked Me Anyway - 73/365



I have a big eye :D

Heee.

I have no idea what happened today.

Happy December 1st.

Taken: Monday December 1st 2008. Day 73.